i'll be there

LDRs

2012-01-15T00:50:00.000+08:00

not easy at all. harder than i ever imagined. but i know i'll be strong and know, love never fails.

awaiting a call in an hour's time!

Twenty Twelve

2012-01-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

“I hope you will have a wonderful year, that you’ll dream dangerously and outrageously, that you’ll make something that didn’t exist before you made it, that you will be loved and that you will be liked, and that you will have people to love and to like in return. And, most importantly (because I think there should be more kindness and more wisdom in the world right now), that you will, when you need to be, be wise, and that you will always be kind.”

Blessed Christmas

2011-12-25T03:13:00.002+08:00

Fall on your knees
O hear the angel voices
O night divine, O night when Christ was born
O night, O holy night, O night divine

MERRY BLESSED HAPPY CHRISTMAS !!!!

It may not the exact day that Jesus was born, but this is a day to remember and honor the birth of Christ Jesus through the immaculate conception of Mary. It has been an amazing Christmas Eve & Christmas (start of) day for me... Little miracles happened... some may choose to call them coincidence/chance, but to me they are miracles, signs from above that He's watching over me...And i'm so happy that all these were experience w my darling boy! ^^

1. He agreed to go for both my cousins' musical & mass with me on Christmas eve! Best of all the musical was so enjoyable and im glad he enjoyed it too as i was afraid that he wouldnt... :D cousins and the team performed very well and i really wish my church can do that some day too...

2. During a part of carolling at novena church, the wind was blowing and a part of the tentage started pouring water.. I was secretly amazed that NO ONE was drenched by that. I looked around and ppl were sitting AROUND the puddle caused by that splash... Beautiful realisation it was :)

3. So it rained during eucharist, but when it ended it subsided and though we did not bring out an umbrella, we were able to walk home in the light drizzle. And it was a pretty enjoyable walk actually ^^

4. Oh and one part when it started to pour halfway through our walk back, we wanted to catch a cab. Thought we saw one turning into the condo and we followed, but none to be seen so we continued walkg but the rain subsided and it was just a passing cloud. And jus as the rain became a light drizzle again, the cab turned out from the condo! God helped us save some money! hee.

5. This is probably my favourite. We made the same gift for each other! A personalized calendar! And with many similar photos as well. Hahahahah. Unbelievable... And guess what, we both created them on the same day!!! Love it. And cant wait to receive it hahahah.

So yes, a wonderful Christmas weekend... God never fail to surprise me in the littlest ways.... So yes, I wish everyone much blessings and goodness of Christ.

Merry Christmas! <3

2011-12-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

One week to Christmas! It shall be a week of love... Love, never fails.

Be the first kind

2011-12-14T00:17:00.001+08:00

This is the thing: When you hit 28 or 30, everything begins to divide. You can see very clearly two kinds of people.

On one side, people who have used their 20s to learn and grow, to find … themselves and their dreams, people who know what works and what doesn’t, who have pushed through to become real live adults.

Then there’s the other kind, who are hanging onto college, or high school even, with all their might. They’ve stayed in jobs they hate, because they’re too scared to get another one. They’ve stayed with men or women who are good but not great, because they don’t want to be lonely. … they mean to develop intimate friendships, they mean to stop drinking like life is one big frat party. But they don’t do those things, so they live in an extended adolescence, no closer to adulthood than when they graduated.

Don’t be like that. Don’t get stuck. Move, travel, take a class, take a risk. There is a season for wildness and a season for settledness, and this is neither. This season is about becoming. Don’t lose yourself at happy hour, but don’t lose yourself on the corporate ladder either. Stop every once in a while and go out to coffee or climb in bed with your journal.

Ask yourself some good questions like: “Am I proud of the life I’m living? What have I tried this month? … Do the people I’m spending time with give me life, or make me feel small? Is there any brokenness in my life that’s keeping me from moving forward?”

Now is your time. Walk closely with people you love, and with people who believe … life is a grand adventure. Don’t get stuck in the past, and don’t try to fast-forward yourself into a future you haven’t yet earned. Give today all the love and intensity and courage you can, and keep traveling honestly along life’s path.

December - Christmas in 15 days

2011-12-10T01:34:00.003+08:00

So December is here again, the year is coming to a close and one of my favorite days in the year is quickly approaching.

Christmas. For many, we know it's Christmas when we hear carols (pop-style) being played on the radio, when lights start lining the roads of Orchard, when we see Christmas trees popping up in every other store front. But these, do these truly symbolise Christmas, do these depict the true meaning of Christmas.

The spirit of Giving, or so they say. So we end up giving gifts... Well I guess it's always nice to give, gifts are also an expression of love. But problem is, the shops are over commercialising Christmas for the better of their business. Giving need not come in expensive items...but the shops often make it seem like thats the right and only way to give. Of cos, i admit that i too do succumb...too many Christmas sales.... too many distractions as well. Christmas has become too secular sometimes..im not sure if it's good or bad. (bad for the obvious reasons, good cos well people are somehow exposed to Christ and love a little more during this time)

Christmas. Christ-mass.. Shall explain the meaning of it in my next post. Gotta sleep now hee.

May the angels watch over us as we fall in slumber... c:

Beautiful words. For future reference teehee

2011-11-23T09:23:00.001+08:00

Blessing of the Hands

These are the hands of your best friend, young and strong and full of love for you, that are holding yours on your wedding day, as you promise to love each other today, tomorrow, and forever.

These are the hands that will work alongside yours, as together you build your future.

These are the hands that will passionately love you and cherish you through the years, and with the slightest touch, will comfort you like no other.

These are the hands that will hold you when fear or grief fills your mind.

These are the hands that will countless times wipe the tears from your eyes; tears of sorrow, and tears of joy.

These are the hands that will tenderly hold your children.

These are the hands that will help you to hold your family as one.

These are the hands that will give you strength when you need it.

And lastly, these are the hands that even when wrinkled and aged, will still be reaching for yours, still giving you the same unspoken tenderness with just a touch.

2011-11-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

love this picture, and best of all, its my own! ^^

Beatitudes

2011-11-01T22:58:00.001+08:00

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

(Matt 5: 3-10)

Onto the lust-list

2011-10-28T23:21:00.003+08:00

pen mini.

Gotta live the present

2011-10-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

2011-10-20T23:54:00.001+08:00

"A true man does not need to romance a different girl every night. A true man romances the same girl for the rest of her life."

Despite all that, you're perfect

2011-10-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

We all need someone to tell us we’re perfect, once in a while. Even if — no, especially since — we’re not.

Because it doesn’t mean we never make mistakes or don’t do stupid things. It doesn’t mean we don’t trip and fall and stumble occasionally. It doesn’t mean we are not complete and utter fools every other day of our lives. It means that despite all of that, we are still beautiful in somebody else’s eyes.

Despite all that. No matter what.

Thoughts

2011-10-12T22:44:00.002+08:00

Well I just realised that whenever I watch travel shows on TV and wanderlust begins, all I imagine is being at that place -with you-.

I could go anywhere, as long as you're next to me. In fact, I wanna go everywhere -with you-.

c:

2011-10-12T22:37:00.002+08:00

2011-10-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

2011-10-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

doing some squatting exercise as i type this now.

2011-09-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

When Forever is just a word, without meaning, the pain lasts nearly that long.

Self reminder

2011-09-14T09:50:00.001+08:00

How To Love A Boy

(As a straight girl.)
*from thoughtcatalog.com

Give him a break. He’s not that guy you dated two years ago who cheated on you and lied about it. He’s someone different entirely; so don’t tar him with the same brush. Maybe he will cheat on you too. Maybe he won’t. But give him a chance to be the man that you deserve, because that’s the least you owe him. Holster your weapon and trust him because it will hurt him more than you know when the woman he loves only sees the devil in him.

Mind his privacy. Don’t go through his things or his phone. The only time I’ve pried into someone’s privacy, and likewise, all the times my friends have, we have successfully found what we were looking for—but that doesn’t make it right. Be generous with him and give him the benefit of the doubt. If your spider sense is tingling do yourself a favor and confront him head on.

Cut him some slack. He’s a boy at heart. Maybe he was playing PlayStation for too long or kicking the footy with his mates and an hour elapsed after the time he promised he would call. Maybe you had to call him to remind him he was running late to meet you. Don’t be angry, he has the best intentions. Time is allowed to slip away from him when he is having fun–it doesn’t mean he loves you any less or that he’s doing the dirty on you. If he is, you’ll just know, so until/ if that happens, just relax.

Be patient with him. Let him be forgetful and let him make mistakes, he will learn from them, I promise. Don’t strike out at him when he forgets to bring home the eggs you reminded him seven times already to pick up from the store. If you want eggs, stop being a lazy goddamn bitch and go out to get them yourself. Take responsibility for the things you want done, and know that when it really means something, he wont let you down, even if the banal everyday tasks you want from him seem elusive. If he’s good enough for your love, he will be bringing you Friends DVDs and chicken soup when you’re sick or driving you around when your car is being serviced, even if he didn’t bring you a copy of Vogue on his way home from work like you asked him to in the morning. And he will probably do you those other kindnesses without even being asked.

Let him treat you sometimes. He might want to buy you an ice cream or a whole dinner, and it means something to him to be able to give things to you, so don’t be an indignant independent woman about it. I bet Beyonce lets Jay-Z buy her dinner from time to time, because a man reserves the right to do things for the woman he loves without her being a snarky bitch about it. And on the flip side, a woman is allowed to enjoy being spoiled every so often. Also, even if you don’t like what he’s giving you, be grateful anyway—chances are he’s put a lot of thought into it and even if it’s not entirely to your liking it doesn’t mean he doesn’t “know” you. It just means he’s a big fat silly, but completely adorable, boy.

Likewise, feed your man. Forget all the dumb shit you read in magazines about women’s rights involving neglecting household duties. Being a working-woman AND a domestic goddess (even if it’s a rare occurrence) are equally sexy and legitimate. Do things because you love him, like cooking a decadent meal that you can share (the key is in the shared moment)—you’ve done it for your girlfriends, I know you have. Your man is no less worthy of your wonderful cooking just because he’s a man and you have some misplaced sense of feminism.

Be kind to him. I know it’s hard when you’re hormonal and he’s breathing in that annoying way you hate and trying to tell you jokes when all you want is to watch the Kardashians do something rich, but he’s just showing his affection. Fight your urge to scream names at him and just breathe—if his worst crime is just being there for you when you’re down then you’ve got no right to be a heinous bitch.

Communicate with him. In the event that you just HAVE to be a heinous bitch, because let’s face it, sometimes you just do—let him know. Tell him, “Honey, I’d like my space now and if I don’t get it I’m going to go all Julie Cooper-Nichol on your ass and it’s not going to be pretty.” Don’t say “Nothing” when you’re mad at him and he asks you what’s wrong. He’s not a mind reader, even if you desperately wish he was. And it doesn’t mean diddly squat if he can’t figure out what “nothing” means. Babe, I don’t even know what “nothing” means and you and I are joined at the sisterhood.

Let him breathe. Give him space. Hell, you need it too! You can’t be together 24/7, nor can you be in constant contact. Let him have his boy’s night and let him return to bed with you at whatever silly hour he sees fit, reeking of cigarettes and alcohol. You do the same. Fall drunkenly into his arms in the still early morning hours and laugh as your recall stories of your evening madness to one another. Pass out wrapped in each others arms and wake up hungover so you can hate life together in the morning.

Give him all the things you expect from him—trust, honesty, respect, loyalty, generosity, kindness, companionship and understanding. Don’t sweat the small stuff and let the trivialities go. Being a ball-breaker is not cute, although nor is being a push over. Chose your battles. Don’t fight when he forgets the eggs but give him what-for if he bequeaths a genuine injustice upon you (which I can tell you now is happening far less often than you really think it is). Be demanding and let him do the same. And don’t forget to tell him you love him everyday, because if he’s forgetting the eggs, chances are he might be forgetting that too.

2011-09-14T00:28:00.000+08:00

2011-09-14T00:24:00.000+08:00

Home Alone

2011-09-11T21:47:00.002+08:00

First day of 14 being alone at home, for the first time in 24 years.

Interesting, yet boring. Or rather, too quiet...
Anyways, I'm praying for a safe and fun trip for my parents, and hoping it would renew their relationship.

And despite the rumours about attacks etc, may all be peaceful...

Goodnight world! God bless <3

2011-09-10T00:56:00.000+08:00

Twenty four

2011-09-05T23:18:00.003+08:00

<3 krabi <3

my happy birthday

24 years and counting!

Prettiest Month

2011-08-07T02:12:00.000+08:00

little things

2011-08-03T23:21:00.000+08:00

501st post

2011-07-28T23:03:00.003+08:00

July is coming to an end... and August is here again! My favorite month together with December.

So this is the month that I shall indulge~

Really wanna conquer the following types of food at these places!

1) French - Duck confit @ black sheep cafe or la petite cuisine
2) Western - Brunch with eggs benedict & desserts @ 1caramel
3) Thai - Choc banana pancake @ krabi
4) Chinese - Dim sum (zomg custard bao) @ taste paradise
5) Japanese/korean - bbq @ gyu kaku / aburiya / 2d1n sojubang
6) Japanese - Ramen @ Ippudo

Hungry already. August hurry here!

Btw, it's been a pretty good July. Can't believe I'd say this, but I've just started to enjoy work. Took me a year, but a good thing it is.

:D

2011-07-27T23:33:00.000+08:00

2011-07-14T22:27:00.000+08:00

For as long as there’s anyone to ask ‘Why?’ the answer will always be, ‘Why not?”

2011-07-07T09:55:00.000+08:00

our priorities dont seem that aligned anymore...

2011-06-25T00:36:00.000+08:00

Let’s grow old together… beginning with today.
Let’s work slowly with each other and build a relationship that we can both enjoy being a part of. Let’s share love and understand that neither of us is perfect; we are both subject to human frailties.
Let’s hold each other close and whisper though the night—pledging our love, honoring our commitment.
Let’s encourage each other to pursue our dreams, even when we’re weary from trying.
Let’s expect the best that we both have to give and still love when we fall short of our expectations.
Let’s be friends and respect each other’s individual personality and give one another room to grow.
Let’s be candid with each other and point out strengths and weaknesses.
Let’s understand each other’s personal philosophy, even if we don’t agree.
Let’s lie awake long into the night sharing our innermost secrets.
Let’s be friends as well as lovers.
Let’s laugh at time and plan with each other and wonder how we ever got along without this love we’ve found.
Let’s never take for granted these moments that we’ve shared, but always be reminded of how intensely we have learned to live, how completely we have learned to love.
Let’s grow old together… and look back on life and smile.

I need this

2011-06-23T00:00:00.002+08:00

looks like a great invention, where can I get one?

but then again, I kinda have a fear of getting electrocuted in my sleep or something? Since it probably runs on battery for the alarm to work right?

oh well, need sleep now. To my fluffy non-vibrating pillow I go...

2011-06-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

Selfless Simple Love

2011-06-15T00:20:00.000+08:00

:*)

2011-06-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

Reminder to self: get heart shaped sunnies soon!

2011-05-28T01:23:00.000+08:00

aches from the past can still hurt more than i thought they would.

stop please.

us.

2011-05-24T00:46:00.000+08:00

Flights of Fantasy

2011-05-21T00:06:00.003+08:00

Just back from HongKong a fews ago~

It was quite a fun and memorable one. Walked the most so far in my entire life! Seen many places, eaten nice & overrated food, shopped till i dropped.

Enjoyed Disneyland the most! I'm such a fantasy kinda person -.- but well, it really is the happiest place on earth! Everything is so pretty and everyone just seemed, happier, well except when you need to queue or when the weather is scorching I guess that would be a different story.

Blessed with good weather and almost everything went according to plans so I was really thankful for that :)

Wanderlust, sigh. I just want to travel the world, and see every corner of it... Amazing and interesting little gems waiting for me...

Hao's on his way to Kangarooland now, wish I could be there too :C Hurry back sweetie. I know the world's not just about boyfriends, but hes a big part of my world. Miss you :C

Goodnight world, I wish you peace and I pray that poor children get enough food and clean water today and everyday.. Bless them.

2011-05-03T22:31:00.000+08:00

and that's how I feel about you...

2011-05-01T01:21:00.001+08:00

There is friendship, and there is family, and then there is silence swollen with the murky fog of almost but not-quite forgotten sins, the jagged shards of broken promises that have not quite dulled with time, and the slimy residue of wounded feelings. There are so very many things that are never talked about. Instead you shut your eyes, you tell yourselves this is friendship and this is love, and you never say, where were you when I needed you, and you never wonder why you are attacked by sudden, terrible bouts of loneliness.

2011-04-29T00:38:00.002+08:00

it was a nice evening. but somehow I felt happy yet with a tinge of sadness, I cant explain... ok maybe I can, but well.

Priorities and dreams to pursue~ I just hope I'm on that list somewhere still... Maybe I'll need to reexamine my own as well too. Are they too simplified? I thought they were perfect..

Would like to have a warm cuddly hug right now, no words are needed to be said, everything can be felt by the heart. I just pray that things dont/wont change.

Goodnight, with a unicorn tear.

Easter Sunday

2011-04-24T01:40:00.003+08:00

HAPPY EASTER EVERYBUNNY!!!!

Just back from Easter Vigil Eucharist, and I'm filled with joy, joy that is simply undescribable.

It may have been a 5hr long ec, but it dint feel like it at all. And that says alot doesnt it? :D

It was a night of emotions - thankfulness, joy, gladness, hope, awe. I felt really really really happy for those who were getting baptised. It must have been such a tough journey for them, such a big step for them. Yet, they trust, they decided, and they chose the path with God in their lives. Such decision is surely not one that can be made easily, it takes faith, and faith is a gift itself.

I literally felt the desire and joy of some of them before they got baptised, as we prayed over them. I also came to realise how God had used me as an instrument of His ministry, and thinking of my personal faith journey was amazing too. I never thought I would be able to do His work like this, I knew so little at the start, but I've learnt so much over the last 4 years. And I'm really really happy to be serving the rciy now. Like how it all started for me. This feeling I felt today, was of the same kind, but a stronger form, of emotions felt 4 years ago when that batch of rciy got baptised. So yes, I'm super excited to continue this journey with crossroads in the 1-2years to come. And so far, everything seems great :)

And everytime we're asked to pray for something to be thankful for, or just to pray for someone, the same thing always come to mind. I know my prayers will be answered, it just takes time and there's no hurry. God knows best and there's nothing to doubt when I leave it all to Him.

So yes, Easter this year actually feels much better than Christmas, which should be the way ainit? I'm glad I finally understand it all. Lent hasnt been that great for me, but I'm thankful that I still got to feel the joy and love this Easter. I hope to be able to radiate this happiness and love of Jesus to those around me! Especially those whom I love and dont understand all this, but it's ok, you just have to know that you're loved. And I love you too. C:

Happy easter once again. May we all be blessed always!

2011-04-23T01:26:00.000+08:00

you may not be perfect, but you're perfect for me.

that's all i need c:

Unicorn

2011-04-17T22:19:00.001+08:00

i saw this picture and then i realised that i dont have a unicorn toy. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?!!! :CCC

darling please find me one after ur exams can?

Friendship Recipe

2011-04-15T22:39:00.001+08:00

Add in two cups of no expectations. Be off the market for a new best friend. You’re in your mid-twenties and satisfied with your social life. Feel like you don’t need to meet anyone new. Stir in one fateful meeting. Meet someone at a party or at a bar or at a dinner. They’ll probably be a friend of a friend, which gives them immediate context. Smile politely and introduce yourself. Think nothing of them at first. In your eyes, they’re just another person in a crowded room, another person you’ll meet for a moment and watch disappear. Maybe you’ll run into them again somewhere and have a vague recollection of meeting them. You won’t be able to place them though and you’ll fret over whether to say hello or keep walking. You always keep walking. But as fate would have it, this person won’t disappear like the others. This person is yours and you just don’t know it yet. Six months from now, you’ll have seen them laugh, cry, and confide in you. You won’t be able to remember a time when they didn’t mean something to you. You’ll say things like, “I can’t believe I’ve only known you for only a little while. It feels like forever.” And you’ll mean it. Sizzle in six comments that stop you in your tracks. The night you meet them, you begin to overhear the things that are coming out of their mouth, and you begin to realize, “Hey. They’re saying some funny thoughtful shit. I like them!” As the night goes on, you listen attentively to their conversations and begin to engage. When you exchange words, both of you have this moment of, “Wait. I’m obsessed with you. We’re on the same wavelength. Welcome to my life. Can you be a major part of it?’ We’ve heard about the concept of love at first sight and it may not even be a real thing. Friendship at first sight, however, does happen and when it does, it’s very special. Spend one amazing day together. Getting to know them is so exciting. In a matter of hours, you cover family, friends and lovers, and you discover that you’ve had similar experiences. It’s like you were both on the same life train, but hanging out in different cars. You obsessed over the same books, records, and moments in pop culture before you ever met. This makes it destiny. Feel supremely lucky to have found someone else who gets it, who gets you. Garnish with one epiphany. You’re never too old to meet a new best friend. Your social life is never full enough. As you get older, you’ll see your friends dwindle down to a select few, and realize how rare it is to actually find lifelong friends. In high school, friendships were so ephemeral. In college, bonds were nurtured by the tight-knit environment created by school. When you graduate and are released into “the real world”, you no longer have any ties to anyone. You make the time for the people you genuinely care about. You say to the friends who matter,”Okay, things are no longer circumstantial. For us to remain close, we’ll actually have to put the work and time into it. I want to know you forever.” If you are still meeting people you want to know forever when you’re forty, consider yourself very lucky. - Thought Catalog

Because you like bicycles and I saw this :D

2011-04-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

Parteee

2011-03-27T21:39:00.002+08:00

Planned and attended Angelyn's 21st party yesterday. I hope everyone had fun!

It was a nice theme, great for photos as you can see C;

Andddddd my cousin Chara Lum baked her rainbow cake!!!!!!!!!! very proud of her C: I may be biased, but she did do a decent job and I'm glad for her! Anyone wants cakes, let me know cos I've an awesome baker in mind.

Ahh, can't believe I turned 21 three years ago.

Soon, age will just be a number.

awww*

2011-03-18T00:02:00.001+08:00

these little ones can be so cute really C:

2011-03-16T23:04:00.003+08:00

Had an interesting and thought-provoking conversation with Hao in his car just now.

How many of us express our pity and sadness for the unfortunate everyday...

"oh they're so poor.." "oh they got no food so poor thing" "so sad they got no parents..." etc etc

But how many of us really do something about it?

Sometimes we think we're doing something (e.g. donation every week, but really where does the money go?!), but most of the time, words of concern remained as that.

Got me thinking about what I can do. But I dont quite know where to start...? Who to help...? And as selfish as it may seem, am I ready to spare some time helping others? (which led me to think about Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs in the shower just now.) Hmm. I guess I gotta think about it and hopefully get down to doing smth, perhaps a small start would be good too. And of cos, to pray about it and see where God brings me to...

this is like so cute. hahahahaha

2011-03-11T00:25:00.000+08:00

weird, but really cute. haha. :)

Ash

2011-03-08T23:51:00.002+08:00

God has His ways. It always comes back in the end. haha was supposed to do a study on 1cor 2 years ago, but dint happen. And now when we needa pick a book for bible study, I myself chose 1cor. It's meant to be! It's not easy though.... I dont understand many things :/

"Remember, Man is dust, and unto dust you shall return."

Ash Wednesday tomorrow, marking the beginning of Lent. A season of penance, reflection, and fasting which prepares us for Christ's Resurrection on Easter Sunday, through which we attain redemption. Basically, its the 40 days before Easter. And a time to think about how to be the better person which Jesus would like us to be. :) Things to change - always aplenty. But there are a few which are kinda on the urgent list.
1) to let go. (must pray!)
2) to trust. (must pray!)
3) to work harder. (determination & conviction that i make a difference)
4) to live healthily. (i.e. more exercise, less fatty food, more sleep)
5) to read my bible daily. (speaking of which, i'd like to find a precious moments catholic edition bible!)

ok gtg crashhhh. nighters.

I see through you

2011-03-06T21:53:00.002+08:00

sometimes what we think we really want, we dont.
sometimes what we think we want, we really dont.
sometimes what we think we love, we dont.
and i am blind. i cannot find the heart i gave to you.
-glass

2011-03-06T00:36:00.000+08:00

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every time i think i feel like puking -_- better sleep. goodnight world.

i got to learn to

2011-03-06T00:35:00.000+08:00

stop caring so much.

for the more i do, the more it'll hurt.

2011-03-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

2011-03-01T23:07:00.002+08:00

it was a sweet evening. even long bus rides can be enjoyable with the right person. thank you my dear for accompanying me back. you dont know how much that means to me C:

and well lately ive been thinking. about how friendships have been affecting me. how hard it is to maintain old friendships while forming new ones. and also the realisation of some who were but frivolous people to have fun with but never really cared about how I was. yet I keep trying to reach out to them, I wonder why really. I guess I have the answer, I just find it so hard to let go. It hurts to see people move on. New people and happenings in their lifes which I dont know about... I stop to think if it's me who failed as a friend, maybe I din't care enough then too. But it takes 2 hands to clap, right? So for now, I shall learn to let go. And start realising who are the ones to keep. I've got a few names in my mind now, some have been long time friends, and some whom I've only recently got to know. I hope I'll keep you, and you'll keep me too.

Okay enough verbal vomit today. before I get somewhat emotional.

But well, I'm feeling happy now, and at peace with myself. Guess that's most important.

Looking forward to lunch tmr! C:

2011-02-28T22:48:00.003+08:00

nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know how much i love you
one thing u can be sure
i'll never ask for more than your love

a cliche classic ballad, on replay for the last two nights.
C:

xx

2011-02-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

A dream is a wish your heart makes

2011-02-24T23:19:00.002+08:00

I am lusting for a getaway.

Wish I can jet off right away. With you and to a world of noone but us.
Like I said, if only we can travel round the world without money being an issue. Dream on i know.

Reality wise, 2.5 months to HK...

February is almost done with, means 1/6 of the year has passed.

Still trying to strike a balance in my life, sometimes I really don't know what I am supposed to do with my life. But I guess I cant be too impatient.
Still I believe, in His time..

Sweet dreams now.

2011-02-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

this is the story of a charming girl. she laughs out loud, sings off key and believes in taking chances. she is quick and curious and playful and strong she lets her imagination run away with her. she has never been one to stick to convention she is fond of daydreams that take her places. she can order a cocktail in six different languages she feels that understated is overrated.

love&otherdrugs

2011-02-20T23:31:00.002+08:00

..and then you... you.. you.. you din't see me that way. I have never known anyone, who actually believed that I was enough. Until i met you. And then you made me believe it too. So unfortunately, I need you. And you need me.

Let's jus say in some alternate universe there's a couple thats just like us, only she's healthy n he's perfect. And their world is about how much money they're spend on their vacation, who's in a bad mood that day or whether they feel guilty having a cleaning lady.

I dont wanna be those people.

I want us.. you.. this.

2011-02-16T22:56:00.001+08:00

dream

2011-02-15T22:42:00.001+08:00

shall start one soon ;)

2011-02-13T01:17:00.002+08:00

the simplicity of joy is easy to attain...

but sometimes we forget.

oh and btw, i now fully understand the meaning of 'made with love'
;)

making a mess in the kitchen at 1224am and having to mop the floor after - kinda therapeutic.

goodnight now. xo

BUNNY

2011-02-03T22:51:00.001+08:00

happy bunny year honey bunnies!

C:

Last Friday

2011-01-24T23:56:00.002+08:00

I had the most amazing evening. Haven't quite felt this way in the longest time.
So joy is actually that simple.

Sitting on a mat in the middle of the road, the kite up there. The sun setting in front of me. Fields and fresh air surrounded me. And the person next to me was you. It was perfect.
C:

I think we all need more fresh air...

2011-01-24T23:48:00.000+08:00

2011-01-21T22:53:00.000+08:00

we are all somewhat damaged, and in that realization we are beautiful

Weekends

2011-01-17T00:02:00.000+08:00

are over too quickly.

Can't we have a 2 days work week, and 5 days weekend? Woah that's like suuuuuper awesomeeee.

Right. I just love to dream really.

Ok sweet dreams, bye

2011-01-09T00:09:00.001+08:00

And i realized that fears when spoken means i'm ready to conquer them.

And dreams spoken will be accomplished with time.

C:

Twenty Eleven 2011

2011-01-02T23:28:00.003+08:00

Hello, new year C:

It may just be another date, another day.. another morning, another night.
But it's a new chapter of the book.

Last chapter had been a fruitful one. Many changes in my life, many experiences I never thought I'd have to go through. I did, and I survived.

I feel like jotting down some memories of the year, but I'm kinda lazy, and some are pretty private thoughts as well. So maybe I'll leave them as they're...in my head.

But anyways, it's been an awesome year with super alot of memories, ups and downs (but more ups i think!), and I've seen the most number of places so far last year! :D

As I enter the 3rd day of the year, I wish me a blessed life ahead with much love and joy, laughter and smiles C: and memories will increase with the people i care so much about C:

xx

it's Christmas, again

2010-12-25T23:20:00.002+08:00

2010's 25 December.
Doesn't quite feel like Christmas, I dont know why...
Maybe it's the lack of squeezing in crowds.
Maybe it's cos I din't go and enjoy the lightings in Orchard at night.

But it's a lovely Christmas. I think I finally understand the meaning of it all. It's not all about the gifts or the lights or dressing up for parties.
It's a time to remember the love of God for us. And so I had a peaceful Christmas eve, crossing into Christmas day itself. Both days well spent with the most important people in my life.

I had fun in the simplest ways :) and love was indefinitely there.

Anyways, it is good to be back. Back to sunny humid Singapore. I do miss a little of the snow, or rather the feeling that snow gives. No, not the coldness of it all, but the white streets and dotted trees along the roads. Like something out of a postcard or movie, it's just so pretty! :) And sipping hot chocolate on a cold winter night just felt so right.

It was a lovely December, I had an awesome holiday with interesting memories. Many firsts, and there were both ups and downs, but on the whole it was something really memorable. I would really love to spend winter there again, and I'd surely wanna bring you along C:

It's gonna be a busy week. Celebrations throughout the week, all through till the new year arrives.

So thankful for everything, and everyone :)

I am

2010-11-18T23:52:00.002+08:00

feeling slightly down >.<

expectations? obligations? responsibilities?

indeed, so much for the freedom of choice.

it's all about perspective...

**

and sometimes i wonder how it's like to live freely. without a care, without needing to think about others.... just live with such spontaneity.
i can only wonder. imagine.
cos it's impossible for a person like me.

i think too much >.< .

dreams are my reality

2010-11-01T23:07:00.002+08:00

28 Dec, last year, i wrote this :
"I'm dreaming of a white Christmas...
Next year, white christmas it'd be......
let's see if this dream comes true 360 days later"

DREAMS REALLY DO COME TRUEEE (i shall start dreaming from now on)
this year, i really think it's gonna be a white christmas!!!
ok perhaps not exactly since i will still be spending christmas here in singapore the sunny humid rainy but love-filled island.
but but BUT, i'll think i'd be seeing some snow up in the swiss mountains! :DD

its been quite a chore making sure i'd be dressed warmly enough and researching on places to go, trains to take bla bla bla. but but BUT i'm really really super excited.

a month more and i'm so counting down :)

days are also passing quickly these few weeks with so much to do at work...that sometimes i question my efficiency :(

i spent 8 hours today eyeballing a list of 2000+ items for just 30 items.
this is what happens when you cant use ctrl-F, when security's so stringent that things have to be done manually. my poor eyeballs.

my body's been aching today. i feel like going for a massage. and i kinda feel like going for a swim too. it's been too long.

lust

2010-10-25T23:28:00.003+08:00

ok, i realise i love ribbons and hearts. and pink, cream, black and gold.

ahhh so pretty. which should i invest on?

(fine, they dont count as investments. but well, my daughter would love them next time too ;))

2010-10-07T23:54:00.001+08:00

home videos are a great great way to end the day....

:D

2010-10-06T23:27:00.001+08:00

:c :c :c :c :c
but who really cares?

you dont know what i know.

the more i try to push away, the more it comes back to me.

take me back to the start.

2010-09-23T00:29:00.003+08:00

tiring week... due to lack of sleep. so i should really go to bed now.

friday is cominggg

2010-09-19T00:37:00.002+08:00

argh i realised its 3 months to dec, not 2! zz too excited, now it seems quite long while more still, but im still v v v v exciteddddd. im always excited to fly, not that i love flights, but i really like seeing new places, things and people!

bought my first trenchcoat!! or rather, was given :) so pretty. hee. thanks dear, now i'll think of u when i wear it in the cold! (which would be like almost everyday there?) hahaha not that i need a coat to think of u, im sure i'll miss u lottts :>>

the weekend's half gone....whyyyy! and me thinks tmr will be gone in a flash.

i love my week. i want every week to be this perfect. i think next week would be lovely too.

and then sept would be ending.....looking forward to october's payday! lol. ok i think im mad.

byeeeee till i dono when.

ps. God loves you and me!

So excited

2010-09-16T18:53:00.002+08:00

Because Friday is almost here (:D)
Because a very special day is approaching (<3)
Because I can make cute little beady bracelets (:>)
Because I have many mooncakes to eat (:O)
Because I can play with lanterns soon (:D)
Because I am just two months away to Paris (!)

Because God is so so good to me this week!!!
(I know He's always good, but this week was exceptionally wonderful)

the bug caused me a

2010-09-06T23:11:00.003+08:00

2nd mc, hope they forgot my first!

anyway, my boyfriend just signed me up for nike 10km run. what have i gotten myself into?
haha, but i guess its a good thing, now i really need to start running and hopefully shed some fats in the process.

oh but have i mentioned how much i love staring at food blogs and reading menus and how i salivate at the sight of tiramisu, pancakes, and even some nicely poached eggs? i dont feel so sick anymore.

Looking forward to hand delivered love filled warm porridge in a silver tingat tin tomorrow.

I love my love, v v muchies.

2010-08-23T23:21:00.003+08:00

"For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you will never walk alone. People, even more than things, have to restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed. Never throw out anyone. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands - one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others."

Too quick.

2010-08-16T00:01:00.001+08:00

Weekends pass by way too quickly.

I guess this is what happens when time is well-spent.

Next weekend, hurry come!!

2010-08-14T00:18:00.002+08:00

withdrawal symptoms

2010-08-08T21:44:00.003+08:00

the kids have left and headed for their own home.

the house is quieter now, and i feel strange somehow..

:c

oh wells, anyway long weekend! our nation's birthday tmr, woots!

ok soccer time. byebyee :D

August

2010-08-05T23:30:00.003+08:00

is a beautiful month.

cos a beautiful girl was born - hey that's me!

c: well, if even i don't appreciate myself, who else would right?

but seriously, it is a good month. there's smth to look forward to everyweek, and i'm on course for a day each week! yippeee!

ahh i want a hello kitty cake. dint get to go in tw :c it is too cute.

2010-07-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

hihihihihi

wow havent been here in awhile, been just too lazy!

anyway works slightly better, after hearing from a number of others, i concluded that everything always has got pros and cons - there is no one perfect job. so i shall just be contented with mine for now, at least for the next two years.

had an awesome weekend. baked (or rather half-baked) cookies with quality boyf time; and the coolest slumber party ever at a suite @ marina bay sands! i know this is quite show0ff but i cant help it - im really proud of it! hahaha. it was so much fun :)

just caught despicable me, and its SUPERRRRR FUNNYYYYY and sweet. we laughed almost every few minutes throughout, we felt tired after! hehehehe. so many LOL moments that its hard to pick my fav! :D

orientation course this week, so it's quite a slack week.

and ive a baby in the house now cos ethan's got handfootmouth disease (poor thing right :( ) and felicia's gotta be separated from her brother. i like seeing her when i get home! :) shes sleeping soundly now btw :)

ok bathtime and bedtime!

2010-07-14T20:50:00.001+08:00

trying hard to keep a smile on my face, everyday!

(but seeing how people around me act and behave depresses me all over again.)

but i must keep trying!!! :D

2010-07-14T00:28:00.000+08:00

Uh oh

2010-07-04T20:57:00.000+08:00

Q: What is a quarterlife crisis?

A: The quarterlife crisis, or QLC, is essentially a period of anxiety, uncertainty and inner turmoil that often accompanies the transition to adulthood.

:P

2010-06-30T23:51:00.003+08:00

hohoho

what is

2010-06-27T17:21:00.001+08:00

love?

Inspire

2010-06-26T01:23:00.003+08:00

Browsing tumblrs of people i dont know at 123am can be very inspiring.

Quotes like:
Stop existing, start living
and
I can
and
Laughter is a universal language
and
Why stop dreamin when you wake up?
and so many more.

Wow, they speak to me and truly inspire me... to believe in this world and want to live my best.

It also amazes me how many many many many people in the world, even in places ten million miles away from this island, we all crave for love, and have big dreams and hopes. Our concepts of life and its beauty are very much the same! It revolves the people we love, junk food, lady gaga, shooting stars, polka dots, hello kitties, and all things pretty.

I can only conclude, we all really want to be happy.

So, live happy, people!

With a love&hope-filled heart, goodnight.

Fresh Air

2010-06-25T23:34:00.003+08:00

Feels soo good. c:

My pox have recovered, the scabs all dropped off by themselves - im so thankful! no obvious scars too c:

Left one week of freedom, i hope to make the best of it... I'm really quite afraid to start work, getting used to a new environment, and people too. And getting used to waking up at 645am from Monday to Friday. BUT, i shall be optimistic about it. Well we shall know in a week's time.

Since it's my last week, there is a number of to-dos (and to-buys) i gotta clear! Some's a must, and some are just well, lust.

1. Get my teeth checked, polished, and whitened
2. Get my eyes checked, and get new glasses
3. Shop, and make use of the sale. I need(want) shoes, pants, and dresses.
4. Quiet retreat by the beach. Just listen to the waves crashing, feel the sea breeze.
5. Facial.
6. Church work - Prep for sunday's opening day.
7. Ladies' night. I really feel like partying with some girlfriends, just to feel young. Hard to find company though.
8. Spend time with my boy.
9. Get something from chanel. (i wonder when i can strike this off my list)

Sigh, I dont want the next week to end! Kinda weird huh, the week aint even started.

2010-06-22T21:36:00.000+08:00

slurps. i just suddenly crave for and totally miss the taste of this zha dan cong you bing!!!

Can you hear

2010-06-20T23:13:00.001+08:00

what my heart is saying...?

In a pretty pink world

2010-06-19T20:56:00.002+08:00

i dream of cakes, candy and carousels.

Pox log

2010-06-15T23:01:00.005+08:00

for memory's sake:

Day 1 - 14/6 (monday) saw some red bites/sores/dots, thought which stupid mozzie bite me so many times.... until i rmbed my colleague who had cpox 2 weeks ago and i paniked. saw a doc and doc says "bad news..." $99 med bill.. only up of the day: watchin Beauty & the Beast :)

Day 2 - the pox became slightly itchier, and i think there are more today :( watched serendipity and tv. up of the day: receiving a not so surprising visit from my boy and omg icecreaaaaammmm (and i was still thinking i cld perhaps lose some weight during this quarantined period)

Day 3 - i feel quite normal actually. not too itchy and i dont think there are new spots thankfully. watched a bit of Modern Family, played some lame games, and then tv for the night. Taiwan beef noodles (instant ones) for lunch, and i so miss the original one please!! oh the broth... up of the day: mummy bought a pink luggage with 4 wheels for me! now i cant miss my luggage on the belt...packing would be so much more fun too. and i wonder when i'd next be flying. work? oh well, maybe?

Day 4 - watched A Lot Like Love (oh ashton kutcher's so cutee and i still love that bon jovi song part), and Pleasantville (i still dont quite get what its supp to mean). Pasta for lunch and i was pleased with my cooking. i love the smell of burnt garlic btw.

Day 5 - pasta again for lunch, with slightly varied ingredients. read cleo and shopped online.

Day 6 - in a chick flick mood and i watched Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants! hahah what kinda title is that, right? but it's an ok show, chick flick alright but not the best plot... also daydreamed about my future walk in wardrobe hoho. speaking of which, i would need to clear my wardrobes soon to make space for a new genre of clothes - work clothes.. which i hope do not mean boring black & whites or plain ol collared blouses. oh well. thinking about what phone to get for work too.. bb or htc? cant stand it. i need to spend money before earning it? :c

Day 7 - havent done much except watching tv and The Bucket List. Pretty good one... i'd prob make a list some day too. Life really is about having joy in your life, and bringing joy to the lifes of others. Shall watch Daddy Day Camp on tv now. O wow, i realise my life's all about watching movies this week. hahaha.

sweetiee

2010-06-15T22:28:00.002+08:00

my bf is the best!

cos he made a trip down just to pass me icecream and a whole load of magazines and a book and his hard disk with movies to watch.

and he waved to me from downstairs hahahaha.

thanks sweetie, love you much!

POXED

2010-06-15T10:57:00.000+08:00