Wednesday, July 30, 2008
puiiii
everyones pissing me off one by one.
i hope tmr will be good.
im scared. of god knows what. why am i so dumb. x(
looking forward to fri night. meeting. and then going to sisters house to stay a night.
seeing baby E can melt my troubles and get my mind off everything.
i need a baby. hurhurhur.
ok im kidding. i cant have a baby. not at this age.
but well i really totally love babies and toddlers.
at least they're innocent, sweet, and cute. not manipulative like us grownups.
they're so simple minded... hungry-cry. urine-cry. uncomfortable-cry. hahaha. yes, irritating, but so straightforward and easy to understand...
not like when we grow up.. so many times, we say one thing n mean another. our expression shows we're ok when we're actually not... we learn how to put on so many masks over time.
growing up can be quite scary.
im turning 21 in less than a month. sounds exciting, yet freaky.
11:47 PM ♥
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
alamak i want to upload photos but blogger is super moody tonight.
i had a happy night last night.
sigh i hope my happiness is not short-lived. greatest fear.
o well. i sound quite stupid now. hurr. well well shall not think too much and just live each day to the fullest!
o yes, baby E is super cute. he can make funny sounds and many different expressions. heeheehee.
oh how i adore babies. x)
10:37 PM ♥
Sunday, July 27, 2008
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're ever gonna shake me
Oh darling, cause you'll always be my baby
ooh, lovely song. Week's been good, besides feeling sick for a couple of days. Teaching was a new experience. My girls were really cute on the last day. They called me a magician cos i was using some cube thingy to teach 3d trigo. Haha. And they asked really funny questions: "ms tan, did u braid ur hair yourself?" "ms tan, ur earrings heavy? can i see?" "ms tan do u wear bikini?" "ms tan are u gonna be gone forever? aww we'll miss u" haha.
St nicks girls are really quite funny & stupid in some ways i gotta admit. but really sweet.
And o yeah thur was racial harmony celebration during assembly. So amanda & i went to watch the sec2s do their indian dances. SO CUTE. hahahaha. and every class had abt 5 pretty girls each. I feel so happy n proud to be from st nicks. hahaha. x)
Being back to teach gives a funny kinda feeling... like seems like just yesterday i was sitting at that seat next to the balcony door at the last row... doing homework below the table while another lesson was being carried out... eating mushroom cheese toast during recess in class... reading my shou ce in the mornings and recesses cos of chinese tests or ting xie... Typing emails on the tchers comp every morning before morning assembly (HAHAHAHA u know who ure)... Painting the classroom pink and having paint over my pe tshirts... hanging out with rita fenni dawn and serene... writing a million postcards filled with RUBBISH just to compete who writes more... smsing with my nokia 3210 and then 6610 hahaha... the bells that ring every period... "thank you goodbye and have a nice day"...
if i could choose to extend a period of my life, or to even freeze time; it'd be during the sec3-4 years. I really really enjoyed life then, I grew so much. And though friendships werent really true when I think right now, I ironically felt I had the best of friends then... Everything just seemed perfect (of cos, with the exception of overload of tests and exams, but whats new right).
God knows what happened since. But well everything has made me who I am right now here today.
Anyways yea i miss my good old sn days. I always like to reminisce. =) i'll send my daughter there =) =) oh the sn pri girls are so stupidly cute too! hahaha.
so that was for sn...
and then i met the freaks, for sherms 21st bday =) i hope she had a good time. looking forward to be classmates again after a term's break!
and i had bonding time with amanda while fixing shermaine's puzzle. it was quite funny actually. despite the sianness and annoyance we felt. hahaha.
youth eucharist this evening went great too. =)
all glory goes to our Father.
GOD ROCKS !!
x)
12:02 AM ♥
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
SNEEZE SNEEZE GO AWAYi hate my ever sensitive nose :(
first down with sore throat. then flu yesterday. and todays like cough n slight fever.
i hate being sick :(
feel so tired n achy all over.
i dont know if it was cos of teaching, or cos of the weather.
both maybe?
but well. teaching really is tiring. but the girls are qt cute. and i like it when they think im 19. hur hur :)
but well my body's getting old. i get tired so easily :(
alrights. early nite tonite. bye
6:40 PM ♥
Monday, July 21, 2008
ugh so put off by people who have no sense of responsibility, and so called friends who dont bloody care.
VERY VERY sickening. selfish people who just want to have fun n enjoy themselves without having to do a single thing.
UGh im very pissed.
11:55 PM ♥
Sunday, July 20, 2008
MORE THAN WORDS
teehee :)11:35 PM ♥
Friday, July 18, 2008
SILLY ME !Felt damn stupid n blur both today and yesterday.
Yesterday I missed the stop to get to the flyer. Ended up on some highway. Paniked and the bus brought me to tg pagar and i had to bus back and cab from suntec to flyer cos i dont know how to walk to flyer from suntec.
Shit im like very not street smart when it comes to directions n all. And i felt so upset by it. Damn scary when i was on the expressway cos i dont know where my next bus stop would be! like dangggg.
And today, I happily left my dearest wallet in popeyes after I've had lunch. After walking up the escalator and on the way to toilet then i realised SHIT CRAP my wallet's not with me :( :( :(
Not that I had lotsa money in my wallet, only $3 actually. But the wallet itself cost more than 100x that and all my cards inside. Thank GOD the staff kept it for me and i lost nth.
I wouldnt know wad to do if i lost it really :( :(
It was my 21st bday present from my dear mummy and I'd really be hell upset if i lost it.
She got it for me about a month ago... cos there were sales n all. And i'm loving it and supp to use it for the next 5 yrs ahahahaha. so pls no wallets as presents pls! (i wont mind wristlets or clutches or bags though) hurhur.
So this is my beloved wallet... looks nicer than the pic actually :) :)
Sigh thank God i dint lose it. or i'd be dead. really.
I'm so blessed!
Work's very boring todayyyy. I dont feel like watching movies also. Sigh dont know what to do. I have 2.5 hrs more to go. Feel like sleeping but i cant. well o well.
3:50 PM ♥
Like a flower, we've bloomed
my most favorite ragdoll, ever. Looks like me right! She's got bangs too! xD
12:04 AM ♥
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
i have zero pax @ flyer today.
work might as well dont work.
hur hur hur.
yeay cant wait to get the asa card.
ok im knocking off in minutes.
over & out
6:32 PM ♥
Sunday, July 6, 2008
being throwing crazy bitch fits the past couple of days
well o well, i think im just being moody and oddly insane
and honestly, i'm still not really very happy. but no point in being upset over smth which i cant do nuts about
yupp and theres always karma, reputation and God jus knows whos good whos bad. i'm sure He'll back me up should anyone bully me, hurrs :)
so alrightys im cool again.
its jus all whatever now
and i shall try not to let anything stop me from being happy!
working tmr. i forsee dead boredom. will be bringing the bible down to read! good way to spend time, and no excuses.
Anyone free please drop by Singapore flyer to visit me... im at the asian collection place. some ulu ducktours counter all the way at the back.
one thg to look forward tmr: popeyes chicken! with yumms cajun fries and mash!
11:13 PM ♥
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Please do something soon...
I really cant wait forever and leave things hanging.
I don't want to assume anything, anymore.
Please let me know, what I should and need to know, be it good or bad.
It was like #2 hitting me this evening. But well its not smth unfamiliar, just that I still pretty damn hate this pang right through my heart. Once again. Once again. I knew, i knew i knew it.
Shit i totally hate this vulnerable side of me. TOTALLY. helps.
What false fronts i had to put on today. Wheres the me i thought i'd found..?
I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears
12:24 AM ♥
Friday, July 4, 2008
last night, while i was so bored waiting for our item which was delayed by a million hours.
so we just pretended to be receptionists. hurr.
st nicks is still ever so ching chong piangg. haha i dont know what im really saying, but guess you get the idea.
zomg, nightmares are recurring again. it's kinda haunting, and daunting.
i really dont like to think and feel this way, but can i help it?
i dont know what i should do... i think we'd need to talk soon..
sigh oh well. stupid sun is not up today so i cant go for a swim.
i shall go get lunch now. its a dull afternoon.
12:58 PM ♥
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
i cant believe such romantic men still exist! haha!
read all abt it here: http://ptechnix.livejournal.com/tag/proposal
10:19 PM ♥
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
i hate this uneasy feeling.
i need a hug. and someone to talk to. and i mean really talk.
12:19 AM ♥