Friday, August 28, 2009
Little San Maohaha in an attempt to entertain myself i jus made a picture comparing my dearest nephew and this cartoon character called sanmao and it cracks me up to see how alike they look! hahaha so cute.
but i cant upload photos man whats bloggers problemmmmm.
11:40 PM ♥
Thursday, August 27, 2009
InadequateBlogger doesnt allow me to upload photos again. Why Why Why?
It's been quite a tiring week, though still manageable for now. But i now wonder if finance is my cuppa tea. And if not, what should i pursue?
Career wise aside, relationships seemed to be dangling on a thread early this week. Expectations, freedom, love, differences... these words crossed my mind and made me wonder. And I could only pray.
angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly?
devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us
9:40 PM ♥
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Weightsmy balloons are losing air and shrinking slowly.
they would be unable to float soon :(
sigh, similarly im feeling heavy. in ways more than one.
11:03 PM ♥
Friday, August 21, 2009
three am.and i'm finally done with printing of notes and assignments for the week! (more or less)
it's been a week of disappointment, mundane-ness, surprises, love, joy and peace.
a year older and hopefully wiser, i've slowly come to see how love should be.
it is not easy to love the right way, but i'm learning and i will get there.
i felt really happy praising Jesus and feeling the joy and peace of the Holy Spirit during the last few hours of being twenty one. I saw how blessed I was all these years, and how life should really be lived. And who really are the ones who matter, who care, and stay. And I'm really glad to be learning much much more about my Father God these few months, and slowly improving my relationship with Him.
Then there was a little drumlet surprise, followed by another HUGE surprise which was a call that said "dont cross the road!" :)
I dreamt of having pretty balloons, and I really got mine. Only prettier :)
Last year it was a safari party. This year I was again an adventurer. To the zoo and the birdpark. It was fun and most importantly, i felt safe, knowing you were beside me.
I know how much more you'd enjoy having a simple dinner with me. But you too know I like talking to many people and so got my friends out for dinner. Thank you for your sweet and kind thoughts of how to make me happy. The board was so pretty too, i feel like i am a superstar with a major fan :P Loving my new pjs too, will showoff to my friends when i go sleepover next time hahaha.
And of cos, not forgetting the friends (who were lousy guests for being late and not wanting to sing for me) who made time to come down, we dint make a toast but well, cheers to friendship!
P.S notes to you all:
adin, we dint go bali, we went batam.
andrew & hs, your notes are VERY boring. write me a 1000word letter. hahahaha. hope me&sherms friends dint freak yall too much ;)
freaks, we're coming to 10years old. that itself says alot <3
2:57 AM ♥
Twenty Two
it's eat cake and grow very fat week! but i shall not complain.
:)
P.S
Happy birthday, me! :D
and thank you, YOU! <3
1:14 AM ♥
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Awesome surprise packed in a pretty boxi miss Polly Pocket. the old school 1990s kind. afterall i'm a 1990s kiddo. i love all the pretty cases, and the tiny figurines of polly and friends and the pets. haha.
now i'm craving to find one (or maybe a few) to buy and keep and let my daughter(s) play with them next time! it's so cute and pretty. i think i liked it more than barbie.
the polly pockets now are so big compared to before...
how to go find such a vintage toy??? carebears have resurfaced, i hope polly pockets would someday too. i found some on ebay but all from other ctries...
i want a heart shaped polly pocket case with pretty rooms insideeeee.!!!
boy, do i sound like some whiny kiddo now.
and i'm 2 days to 22!
7:02 PM ♥
Sunday, August 16, 2009
awake, just to hear you breathingsimple happy day spent at sis' place. its a joy playing with the little one. childlike innocence is such a divine gift. it's so easy to tell how a child feels. why then do we start puttin on different masks as we grow older and older?
and everything gets complicated..
been hearing too many stories from different people about how almost quote on quote "the whole world" sleeps around now. what happened to sex and genitals being a gift from our Father God to procreate and it being sacred? and He loves us so much that sex was made such that both parties would enjoy in the process of procreation... but well, funny thing is, the 'world' now mocks at virgins these days.
this world is going topsy turvy... scary, very scary.
first birthday cake from my sis. with one candle haha so it seemed more like ethan's bday, but well im more than happy to share it with him :)
i love the way he smiles and laughs when he sees me. melts my heart and really makes my day.
at least he wont get this annoyed with me..for nth...
oh crap i hate how im feeling now.
11:53 PM ♥
Thursday, August 13, 2009
if looks could kill
i could almost sniff the flowers.
and you would die to be in her arms.1:01 AM ♥
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
august-oaugust. tough fight with december for being my favorite month of the year.
feed me some love, baby. no wait. make that alot!
ah but shit ah first class tomorrow. i hope i make friends. but i dont like making new friends.
i'm really a shy, inward and insecure person.
change change change.
12:51 AM ♥
Sunday, August 9, 2009
canttttt wait for tmrrrrrrrrrrrr
im like non-existent now. wow wee boo hoo.
9:14 PM ♥
Thursday, August 6, 2009
perfectioni believe that its true God made us perfect.
just look at all babies and toddlers. they're just perfect and the sweetest things.
we were all born to be a wonderful miracle.
now where did we learn the evil stuff frm? :(
2:00 AM ♥
what makes you happy ?
today i met with different people.
some, i thought i would have friendships to last my life, but apparently not so.
one whom i love and loves me back, time seems to fly by when i'm next to him.
one who is beginnging to be a friend to me.
and i just ended my day (or night) by watching homevideos of my favorite little baby boy.
i think i'm enlightened somehow, on how to be happy.
somedays i'd think that if i'm very beautiful, hot, rich, powerful, successful etc, i'd be super duper happy. with lotsa guys liking me and many pretty friends and everyone sucking up to me and i can be the envy of all. no doubt that might be true, but there are chances (and chances are high) that such a person would be but an empty shell.
and then i realised that, despite my imperfections now. there are people who still love and care for me. similarly, i do love people who are not exactly perfect in the eyes of this cruel world, but they just are so flawless to me.
bags clothes and shoes do make me happy. but only temporarily. i still have to throw them or sell them sooner or later. or maybe i'd jus chuck them aside one week later.
what really makes me happy, are the little things being done for me and doing things with people i care for. a simple smile and thank you. playing soccer with a tiny ball in your study room. laying alone in my room listening to my fav songs and feeling so at peace with myself. springing a surprise with my fav magazines. eating icecream in the cold winter wind. that innocent laugh. and walking, just walking without really knowing where i am (and not caring) because i know i wont get lost with my arm in yours...
relationships, they are what make my life worthwhile.
i'm gona continue building on them. so trust me, when i say i love you.
1:28 AM ♥