Monday, September 7, 2009
A Lost Sheep
everything i need is You... my beginning, my forever...many times i feel so useless and lousy. and i have people around me discouraging me and thinking what i do is a waste of time etc.
and filling in applications, having to answer questions like "Please share your career aspirations" and "Describe what you would consider your greatest non-academic achievement and why"... makes me feel quite bleah and zzz. because if i just be blatantly honest and answer "i just aspire to be a mother and bring Christ to people and make people happy" how would they think? or that i aspire to be a fashion designer someday or a singer singing my own songs... i guess they would just throw my application aside. yes, i do have dreams of becoming a ceo someday, a banker meeting filthy rich clients, a trader screaming my voice off... but sometimes i'm afraid. afraid that such ambitions diminishes the me in me. and if im into all these just for the glamour and the money..
i dont know if im making any sense actually... i do feel a little lost. reality really bites.
i just pray that God paves a road that is perfect for me.
11:01 PM ♥